Last Easter feels so close. I remember exactly what I wore. What my family wore, what my friends wore … actually that’s probably because there are tons and tons of pictures from that day 😛 But it still feels surreal that a year has passed and so much has changed yet remembering 365 days back genuinely does not feel that difficult to do.
Have I changed as a person? As a Christian? Have I grown in faith? Have I grown in character?
College is supposed to be a transformative experience as a religious person. You’re supposed to find the perfect bible study, a tight-knit fellowship, Christian friends.. but that has not been the case for me. I have found it increasingly difficult to go to fellowship, people I dislike in my bible study, and the general feeling of isolation among the few Christians they are on campus. In fact, I have even begun thinking of Christianity mainly in relation to worldly things such as sin or temptation and friendships and good deeds, nothing related to a relationship with God at all.
I think in this way that God is challenging me and I know that I am failing.
This spring break I went back home and there were primarily two things that really make me hopeful for the rest of the year and going into summer and sophomore year. One was that my brother for his baptism had gotten this Life NIV study bible. I opened it and was blown away by immediate resolution to read all of it. Easier said than done of course, but when I am done with school, I believe that’s what I’m going to do. I needed God to spark this sudden fire in me for the Bible and hopefully it’ll be a way for me to understand on a deeper level His purpose for me and the ways in which He works. The second thing was that on Easter Sunday, my church finally decided to start construction for an expansion of the building that has not been done for over thirty years. The picture is above, but we all wore hard hats and carried shovels and got super cutesy excited about the “ground breaking.” I am reminded of God’s constant renewals – His forgiveness of our sins every day, the way He opens doors, the start of new beginnings. Happy Easter. He is Risen.