Christian

Wait for the Lord

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I was asked to do this commission for a group of girls in my fellowship for when they went on an overnight stay-retreat. It’s taken from a website called Naptime Diaries that does a lot with Bible verses and pretty posters 🙂 This was my first attempt, clearly, as it looks pretty rough and also unfinished as I didn’t completely outline all that I needed to. Technically speaking, I need to work on the lettering for everything that isn’t in cursive and also take note that you cannot simply watercolor on regular cardstock. 😛 I will also probably redo this and maybe do an update on it and see the progress I have made, which I think would be quite cool!

This verse to be honest did not strike me at first. Especially in recent times, with such tragedy all around us in the news and everywhere, I took it to mean something almost of a complacency with the world around us. But I don’t think that’s what it means. Now, it reminds me of the title of this blog, Still and Know, which for those that don’t know, is a reference to the Bible verse, “be still and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10.

Wait for the Lord because He will come to conquer all in the end, wait for him, be quiet and listen for him, because He is there. He is present, He will always provide. But more than that BE STRONG AND TAKE HEART. Have confidence in Him and what He can do. And be strong. Be courageous. Be all that you believe is right in the world, wait for the Lord, but also be in the world and do good onto it with belief in Him .

A happy 19 to me

Last week, I celebrated my 19th birthday. I have always been pretty low key about birthdays, so what we planned to do – dinner and a movie – ended up being eating at home and seeing a movie on Netflix – just as nice 🙂 Anyways, I’m happy I got to spend so much time with family and hear from friends I hadn’t heard from in quite a while. Not that you can do much at 19, but it’s crazy that the years have passed so quickly, and in a blink, I have reached my last year of being a teenager. Here are just a couple photos below 🙂

My boyfriend sent me this basket of Edible Arrangements as he was off at Duke doing research and couldn’t make it. My mother went wild with the pictures… I thought this one looked nice and captured quite impressively the cute 19 made out of pineapples in the middle. IMG_4898.JPG

For myself, I recently found out about Thredup, which is a website that sells used clothes very cheaply. You can choose to buy from them or to sell them your own used clothes (though I hear bad reviews about the selling part). I browsed and purchased three shirts from the website and it came in the cutest packaging right in time for my birthday! Needless to say, I am really pleased with my purchase and for those who do a lot of online shopping, you would feel right at home. IMG_0639IMG_0640FullSizeRender 3.jpg

A while back, a friend also got me these two ridiculously cute items from Mochi Things – the first is a set of pretty colored highlighters and the other a Japanese weekly planner. I am an absolute sucker for stationary and am pretty excited to use it. I decided to include them in this post just because they looked quite pretty haha. The shorts in the picture below is from Ann Taylor that my mother got me. IMG_4904.JPGIMG_4905.JPG

My brother has a couple of key stores he goes to when he gets gifts for me and my birthday was no different. The two mugs (one is from Christmas) are both from Anthropologie and the cute little black and white box is from South Moon Under. I love them all so very much and at the rate he’s going, I will have quite the accumulation of mugs 😉 IMG_0695.jpgIMG_4861.JPG

I’m really grateful for the life that I live. I’m thankful for God and I am thankful for family, for the opportunities that I have been given to reach the place that I am now, more so than any physical present that I received. 19 is a new year for me and I am excited for what it brings. My hope for myself is to stay motivated and to stay true to myself, to work harder to understand others and show compassion and love in ways that I can, and to transition into greater maturity and understanding of the world and pursue a deeper love for God.

Christian Songs (I)

I have sort of given up listening to music while in college simply because I am too busy and music detracts from my productivity, but the other day I pulled out my Spotify worship playlist and felt that I really needed it in my life right now. A couple of my absolute favorites 🙂

  1. How He Loves – David Crowder Band

2. You are Holy – Michael W. Smith

3. From the Inside Out – Hillsong

4. Blessed be Your Name – Matt Redman

5. You Make me Brave – Bethel Music

Easter musings, new beginnings

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Last Easter feels so close. I remember exactly what I wore. What my family wore, what my friends wore … actually that’s probably because there are tons and tons of pictures from that day 😛 But it still feels surreal that a year has passed and so much has changed yet remembering 365 days back genuinely does not feel that difficult to do.

Have I changed as a person? As a Christian? Have I grown in faith? Have I grown in character?

College is supposed to be a transformative experience as a religious person. You’re supposed to find the perfect bible study, a tight-knit fellowship, Christian friends.. but that has not been the case for me. I have found it increasingly difficult to go to fellowship, people I dislike in my bible study, and the general feeling of isolation among the few Christians they are on campus. In fact, I have even begun thinking of Christianity mainly in relation to worldly things such as sin or temptation and friendships and good deeds, nothing related to a relationship with God at all.

I think in this way that God is challenging me and I know that I am failing.

This spring break I went back home and there were primarily two things that really make me hopeful for the rest of the year and going into summer and sophomore year. One was that my brother for his baptism had gotten this Life NIV study bible. I opened it and was blown away by immediate resolution to read all of it. Easier said than done of course, but when I am done with school, I believe that’s what I’m going to do. I needed God to spark this sudden fire in me for the Bible and hopefully it’ll be a way for me to understand on a deeper level His purpose for me and the ways in which He works. The second thing was that on Easter Sunday, my church finally decided to start construction for an expansion of the building that has not been done for over thirty years. The picture is above, but we all wore hard hats and carried shovels and got super cutesy excited about the “ground breaking.” I am reminded of God’s constant renewals – His forgiveness of our sins every day,  the way He opens doors, the start of new beginnings.  Happy Easter. He is Risen.

 

 

 

 

Blind Devotion

JUBILEE PROJECT: BLIND DEVOTION

I cried so hard during this video, especially when it turned to the man’s perspective. You see… this is what happens between us and the Lord. He is always watching us, protecting us, even when though we are blind in every way possible. Although we might think everything in our life is wrong, we do not realize that we have Him, we have a devoted one so close to us, protecting us, comforting us, and always there for us.

Blind devotion

I love Jubilee

30 Days of Thanks – Day 25

Whewwwwwww

Wowwwwwww

I’m seriously stressed about a lot of college app stuff…

but I know, in the end, I have so many people that support me. I have a God who loves me no matter what.

I have cute babies to cuddle at the Ministry of Caring.

What more could you want in life?

World peace… but you can’t have everything huh

30 Days of Thanks – Day 10

Wow… I feel like I started this yesterday. O.o Time moves so fast.

Also complete sidenote, but suddenly I’ve been getting so much traffic on my blog and I have no idea how that happened … I don’t think I’m doing anything significantly different other than posting a bit more… ????

Anyway, on to thanks.

I am thankful for love 🙂 For family and friends and maybe just the general love that flows from humanity.

I was on a run today and I just saw this old Chinese grandmother stop walking and go over to this newborn baby in the hands of an American mother. Even though she couldn’t speak English, there was a certain acknowledgment as they both looked at the baby, a certain love that’s in the air that shows the inner connection of love that transcends all boundaries. It was just a really good feeling. I think I ran with a greater spring in my step.

There is nothing more important to me than family. My family is beautiful, wonderful, not perfect, but always trying. They are always there for me, my brother, my mother, and my father, all in their unique ways. My mom pushes me so hard in everything I do, because she wants me to be successful. My dad is there to keep me calm, to provide a voice of reason and comfort in my life. And my brother? He always stands up for me. Always, always, always.

My best friend and I have less than a  year left together… it’s actually really quite sad. We are both seniors. We met many many years ago and we just simply do not have the time to even go to each other’s house for a sleepover or talk to one another because we are just so busy, so the chance encounters that we have are treasured. I miss her a lot. But there is something absolutely brilliant in having the stability and comfort of a forever friend that you know you’ll never lose.

There is that saying that goes

‘Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.

Suffering through the hardness of trying to maintain a sort of long distance relationship, I find myself going back to this quote a lot. And I think it is true.. not so much the lost part – lol that would be kinda bad – but the fact that love or like (in my case) is not easy. I look around at all the parents, all the couples around me and now I suddenly have a greater realization that they must have each had to deal with their own problems before they reached a solid sure love. Because he makes me so happy, gives me butterflies, a perfect euphoria at times… I think it’s worth all the suffering because there’s something strangely blissful about knowing someone accepts you for who you are and likes you that way.

JESUS PRAISE JESUS ALMIGHTY GOD because God is the most loving of them all. (Sidenote: I did really well on my physics test today, and my other physics test was curved… so praise Jesus for that too :)) God is always there for me. Through the thick. Through the thin. When times are hard, when there is no one else to turn to. God is always freaking by my side. That is always enough.

So yes. Love is very important.

Praise Jesus for one of the best days.

A Sporadic Weekly Favorite

I am just trying this out for fun … I don’t know how it’ll go but we’ll see – which is why it is so aptly named “sporadic.”

1. Hillsong – Still

I always love going back to Hillsong United because they always have the most consistent, soothing, worship songs. Still is a somewhat old song, I believe, that my friend just recently suggested to me. I fell absolutely in love with it and the lyrics.

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

In the stillness, in the quiet, worship God. Know Him a little better.

2. Tattoos on the Heart – Gregory Boyle

Tattoos on the Heart

I’ll probably write something more on this topic later… but basically, this book has absolutely touched my heart. Even though it gets kind of repetitive near the end, it has really resounded with me personally because of some of the work I was doing over the summer. Basically, I received an internship working with Latin American kids in a large, high crime rate, city near my home town. The book deals with Latin Americans and gangs in California. It’s also sort of a religious book and I think reading it really just drove me back to what I truly believe in and really allowed me to think and ponder about my faith and the issues of the world and society.

3. Jayesslee is BACK

Popular twin sisters on Youtube came back after over a year of leaving to take care of their two newly born babies! Even though they just had a small 20 second or so cover because of their crying children, I’m excited for what’s in store. I adore them.

4. Random PINS

Cute idea – decorating a wall with a coffee mug display that also serves as a wonderful storage idea.

Creative bow eyeliner idea – totally interesting… but totally not doable? ? Can’t even put on regular make up 😛

I love this… I don’t even know what this is called… but I think it’s so beautiful, so simple, so natural.