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Happy Father’s Day

Although Father’s Day was yesterday, I decided to just write a little something because I feel like it’s always the time to express appreciation for my dearest dad. For endless hard work, for patience and compassion, for kindness and wisdom, for selflessness and overwhelming love, thank you for being the best dad and the closest reflection of our Father in heaven. We may never express it very well, but in our hearts and in our minds, we always wonder how we could have possibly deserved the likes of you.

 

 

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Kairos Retreat

It’s been a week since Kairos retreat. And the Kai-high has gone away and the people that I grew close to have slowly started to fade from my mind… but I can still sense it. The happiness in the air. The genuine truth and desire. The fragile breaking of hearts. The gentle opening of vulnerability.

What an amazing retreat.

Shout out to my loves Peyton, Justine, Nick, Payas, Maddie, and Gerber heh because it was through them, I was able to talk about things I’ve never actually talked about to anyone. And it felt like a pressure had lifted – and pretty relevant I suppose since it’s Easter time and Good Friday for me to confess all of my insecurities, my sins, in front of these people – the football guy, the stuco pres, the computer guy, the volleyball champ, and my friend – and just let it all go. We talked until 3 in the morning and then we went over to another room so we could hang out some more and there we were, I remember …

lying on Peyton’s bed, hearing Mike talk, gathered around each of us, nerds and friends and cool kids and unpopular kids and soccer buddies and all these people in my school, brought together by the magic of Kairos.

Kairos, built on the relationships between us and the people we love, in order to show us how much God loves us

Kairos, where I can listen and learn and hear of all these stories of so many people, and just be blown away by the things people have to handle, let me never forget Madame Thiel and Niko’s story, because all they do is remind me of the beautiful lucky life I live

Kairos, a place to grow together in God, and to grow together through friendship and love

Kairos, a special time where we can all be who we truly want to be, where we find out the truths of all those around us, and to find ourselves in an intimacy as never before

Kairos, where through Letter Night, may we cry our souls out and be blown away by the love of our friends and family and just sit there trembling with the flood of tears at the edge of our eyes and the hush as we unroll hundreds, thousands of letters of love

Kairos

Cry the first

Doubt the second

Trust the third

Live the fourth

May I always try to live the fourth, to be the person that I always wanted to be, and to become closer to more people and reach out and let others know that I care. I genuinely care. Each of you.

You make lists in your head about what you want in a lover, like brown hair and a sweet voice. A sharp mind and a soft heart, a sense of humor that actually makes you laugh like you mean it. This and that. And it’s all bullshit. Because people aren’t lists. And I’ve always wanted to be the person who made someone realize that. I want to come across someone with a list in their head that is nothing like the person I am, and I want to show them what they didn’t even know they were looking for. People who think they know what they want are fooling themselves. Nobody really knows what or who they want. Not until it’s right in front of them.

– unknown

On My Love for Emma Watson

Who doesn’t love Emma Watson… that’s the real question.

Look at her.

Just look.

But okay, I suppose that starts my first point.

The girl is absolutely gorgeous.

Number 2!

She’s smart and she values education. It’s so hard to see other celebrities who are successful where they are, yet still prize education and schooling. Emma has enough money to last her through her entire life, yet she does even more by going to Brown University and graduating, on top of filming a bazillion movies. Obviously, she’s not the only one and you can hear about Dylan and Cole Sprouse and their studies at NYU or Chloe Bridges at Columbia… but let’s be real, she’s definitely under the spotlight the most.

(sidenote* many apologies for the random sizes of these pictures, I have no idea how to change it :P)

Number 3!

She’s such a feminist and it’s amazing. She’s amazing. :3 She isn’t just an actress or a student, she’s also a social activist. Her speech for HeForShe in support of women’s rights is straight up amazing. She is a true model to look up to, who uses her fame for something other than more luxury for herself.

 

Number 4

She’s respectful. There aren’t any of her naked pictures up on the Internet…(not that it was the fault of Jennifer Lawrence and the others) she dresses appropriately, casually, rather than trying to bring more attention to herself. I find this so attractive. It’s so easy to compare her and put her above the likes of Miley Cyrus or Rihanna.

Number 5

She’s also a successful movie star. I suppose you can’t help but mention this fact because how else did she become famous. I love Harry Potter, so that’s a bonus, but she has also starred in the most successful movies compared to her fellow castmates from Harry Potter such as The Bling Ring and Noah.

Number 6

Dat fashion sense doe… hot hot hot… Girl can work it if she wants to.

I feel like this covers most of it… let me know if you think there’s something missing that I should mention! Love for Emma Watson needs to be shared 🙂

30 Days of Thanks – Day 10

Wow… I feel like I started this yesterday. O.o Time moves so fast.

Also complete sidenote, but suddenly I’ve been getting so much traffic on my blog and I have no idea how that happened … I don’t think I’m doing anything significantly different other than posting a bit more… ????

Anyway, on to thanks.

I am thankful for love 🙂 For family and friends and maybe just the general love that flows from humanity.

I was on a run today and I just saw this old Chinese grandmother stop walking and go over to this newborn baby in the hands of an American mother. Even though she couldn’t speak English, there was a certain acknowledgment as they both looked at the baby, a certain love that’s in the air that shows the inner connection of love that transcends all boundaries. It was just a really good feeling. I think I ran with a greater spring in my step.

There is nothing more important to me than family. My family is beautiful, wonderful, not perfect, but always trying. They are always there for me, my brother, my mother, and my father, all in their unique ways. My mom pushes me so hard in everything I do, because she wants me to be successful. My dad is there to keep me calm, to provide a voice of reason and comfort in my life. And my brother? He always stands up for me. Always, always, always.

My best friend and I have less than a  year left together… it’s actually really quite sad. We are both seniors. We met many many years ago and we just simply do not have the time to even go to each other’s house for a sleepover or talk to one another because we are just so busy, so the chance encounters that we have are treasured. I miss her a lot. But there is something absolutely brilliant in having the stability and comfort of a forever friend that you know you’ll never lose.

There is that saying that goes

‘Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.

Suffering through the hardness of trying to maintain a sort of long distance relationship, I find myself going back to this quote a lot. And I think it is true.. not so much the lost part – lol that would be kinda bad – but the fact that love or like (in my case) is not easy. I look around at all the parents, all the couples around me and now I suddenly have a greater realization that they must have each had to deal with their own problems before they reached a solid sure love. Because he makes me so happy, gives me butterflies, a perfect euphoria at times… I think it’s worth all the suffering because there’s something strangely blissful about knowing someone accepts you for who you are and likes you that way.

JESUS PRAISE JESUS ALMIGHTY GOD because God is the most loving of them all. (Sidenote: I did really well on my physics test today, and my other physics test was curved… so praise Jesus for that too :)) God is always there for me. Through the thick. Through the thin. When times are hard, when there is no one else to turn to. God is always freaking by my side. That is always enough.

So yes. Love is very important.

Praise Jesus for one of the best days.