Relationships

Life Lessons – My Conclusions before heading off to college

Some Life Lessons –

  1. Don’t be afraid to speak up
    1. I think when I was younger, I was afraid to talk to a lot of the older people in youth group. It was partly because I was intimidated, partly because I thought I didn’t have anything substantial to add, partly because I didn’t want them to judge me. Don’t be afraid to say what you think. This means in youth group, don’t be afraid to add on something that’s going on in your mind. It also means simply to have faith in yourself and your abilities.
  2. Hold on to your relationships.
    1. Especially when you’re going through some of those rough years in high school, it is crucial that you maintain good relationships. Your friends can hold you accountable, tell you when they think you’re doing something good or gently let you know if they think you’re doing something wrong. They’re also the ones you get to spend some of the best and happiest memories. Also, cherish your family relationships as well. I’ve been incredibly blessed to have an amazing family and this has been my foundation for getting me through so many things.
  3. Be true to who you are and your values
    1. There will most definitely be a moment in your life where your values will be put into question. Stay true to them. My dad often has told me to not simply just listen to what people tell you – whether that’s at school, in the news, in church – to make your decisions and your opinions for yourself. Stay true to them!
  4. Think big picture
    1. We have a lot of worries and a lot of stress especially in high school. But always, always, always think big picture. You’re happy, you’re healthy, you’re safe, and you have lots of people who love you and care about you. That’s really all that matters in the end yeah?
  5. Be committed
    1. Finally, I would like to stress how important it is to be committed to Jesus. Make it a habit – prayer, reading the Bible, going to church. You think these things are very straightforward routine concepts that every Christian follows, but that’s because they really actually help grow you spiritually. I found my faith to be strongest and when I was the happiest when I was really on top of those things. even when you don’t want to do certain things because you don’t have the time, do it do it do it I’ve learned the hard way. it is so important to be committed because having a faith in Jesus that grows and grows and grows will be a foundation to all those other values.

Kairos Retreat

It’s been a week since Kairos retreat. And the Kai-high has gone away and the people that I grew close to have slowly started to fade from my mind… but I can still sense it. The happiness in the air. The genuine truth and desire. The fragile breaking of hearts. The gentle opening of vulnerability.

What an amazing retreat.

Shout out to my loves Peyton, Justine, Nick, Payas, Maddie, and Gerber heh because it was through them, I was able to talk about things I’ve never actually talked about to anyone. And it felt like a pressure had lifted – and pretty relevant I suppose since it’s Easter time and Good Friday for me to confess all of my insecurities, my sins, in front of these people – the football guy, the stuco pres, the computer guy, the volleyball champ, and my friend – and just let it all go. We talked until 3 in the morning and then we went over to another room so we could hang out some more and there we were, I remember …

lying on Peyton’s bed, hearing Mike talk, gathered around each of us, nerds and friends and cool kids and unpopular kids and soccer buddies and all these people in my school, brought together by the magic of Kairos.

Kairos, built on the relationships between us and the people we love, in order to show us how much God loves us

Kairos, where I can listen and learn and hear of all these stories of so many people, and just be blown away by the things people have to handle, let me never forget Madame Thiel and Niko’s story, because all they do is remind me of the beautiful lucky life I live

Kairos, a place to grow together in God, and to grow together through friendship and love

Kairos, a special time where we can all be who we truly want to be, where we find out the truths of all those around us, and to find ourselves in an intimacy as never before

Kairos, where through Letter Night, may we cry our souls out and be blown away by the love of our friends and family and just sit there trembling with the flood of tears at the edge of our eyes and the hush as we unroll hundreds, thousands of letters of love

Kairos

Cry the first

Doubt the second

Trust the third

Live the fourth

May I always try to live the fourth, to be the person that I always wanted to be, and to become closer to more people and reach out and let others know that I care. I genuinely care. Each of you.

30 Days of Thanks – Day 10

Wow… I feel like I started this yesterday. O.o Time moves so fast.

Also complete sidenote, but suddenly I’ve been getting so much traffic on my blog and I have no idea how that happened … I don’t think I’m doing anything significantly different other than posting a bit more… ????

Anyway, on to thanks.

I am thankful for love 🙂 For family and friends and maybe just the general love that flows from humanity.

I was on a run today and I just saw this old Chinese grandmother stop walking and go over to this newborn baby in the hands of an American mother. Even though she couldn’t speak English, there was a certain acknowledgment as they both looked at the baby, a certain love that’s in the air that shows the inner connection of love that transcends all boundaries. It was just a really good feeling. I think I ran with a greater spring in my step.

There is nothing more important to me than family. My family is beautiful, wonderful, not perfect, but always trying. They are always there for me, my brother, my mother, and my father, all in their unique ways. My mom pushes me so hard in everything I do, because she wants me to be successful. My dad is there to keep me calm, to provide a voice of reason and comfort in my life. And my brother? He always stands up for me. Always, always, always.

My best friend and I have less than a  year left together… it’s actually really quite sad. We are both seniors. We met many many years ago and we just simply do not have the time to even go to each other’s house for a sleepover or talk to one another because we are just so busy, so the chance encounters that we have are treasured. I miss her a lot. But there is something absolutely brilliant in having the stability and comfort of a forever friend that you know you’ll never lose.

There is that saying that goes

‘Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.

Suffering through the hardness of trying to maintain a sort of long distance relationship, I find myself going back to this quote a lot. And I think it is true.. not so much the lost part – lol that would be kinda bad – but the fact that love or like (in my case) is not easy. I look around at all the parents, all the couples around me and now I suddenly have a greater realization that they must have each had to deal with their own problems before they reached a solid sure love. Because he makes me so happy, gives me butterflies, a perfect euphoria at times… I think it’s worth all the suffering because there’s something strangely blissful about knowing someone accepts you for who you are and likes you that way.

JESUS PRAISE JESUS ALMIGHTY GOD because God is the most loving of them all. (Sidenote: I did really well on my physics test today, and my other physics test was curved… so praise Jesus for that too :)) God is always there for me. Through the thick. Through the thin. When times are hard, when there is no one else to turn to. God is always freaking by my side. That is always enough.

So yes. Love is very important.

Praise Jesus for one of the best days.