I haven’t made a post yet about my reflections on freshmen year – this is mostly out of laziness and trying to think as little as possible. Also, the fact that I have to cover the entire year in ONE blog post. Anyway, here is my attempt, more than a full month after school has been let out, to make some sort of coherent statement about how I felt, how I changed, blah blah blah ha ha ha
Freshmen year was really cool in the sense that I got to experience and participate in things that I had never done before *cue random list below*
- reading through all of Jane Austen’s works
- for your information, Pride and Prejudice, Emma, and Persuasion are my favorite (in that order 😉
- Learning how to use Indesign and Illustrator
- Binding my first book in a bookbinding workshop
- Learning how to weld metal
- Get set up at a dance for the first time
- Volunteer at my first Hackathon
- Study in amazing places
Aside from the cool experiences, I got to meet and become friends with so many incredible people at Yale – really awe-inspiring, crazy talented people. I made quite a few friends, but in this front, I am still dissatisfied. I feel that there are so many people that I have not yet meet and also a lot of people that I want to know better. I expected to be able to find that one person that I would hang out with the most , that would become my closest friend in college, but I have been unsuccessful in this front. Many of the friends that I have become friends with often have friends that they are closer to and it means lots of third-wheeling. I’ve been trying to improve myself and place myself into situations where I can really get to know more people … anyways, I am very excited for next year.
This excitement carries over for my extracurriculars! I’m happy with the extracurriculars that I did this year, although for most of it, I spent it thinking that I didn’t do enough. My suite mates and other friends were typically involved in extremely time-consuming activities – sports, dance, improv, etc. but I had a bunch of small things. AIESEC, consulting, VITA. Looking back, I think I actually did do quite a lot and am happy with the friendships that I have made through it. I’m hoping next year that I can dive more deeply into these activities and also get into research, more volunteering, and maybe another job or something.
In terms of my spiritual life, I also struggled. The fellowships at Yale are small and not super strong. I also got somewhat caught between two fellowships, YFA and YSC, and making the change from one to another proved to be harder than I thought as I grew attached to the people that I met. Hopefully, I have made the right decision, but being able to have people like Julie and Hong to keep me accountable through weekly dinners is still very nice. I have been making attempts to learn more and understand more of Christianity and while intimidating and at times unsuccessful, I am continuing this process over the summer.
Some lessons that I have learned and some things I would like to improve on
- Be independent, know what you want and don’t be afraid to say no or yes to things – don’t fall to peer pressure!
- try out more things, say yes to hanging out with people
- create events yourself
- always think of others, small gestures of kindness are so important
- stick to a routine – exercise regularly – read Bible regularly – eat regularly
- love more than you hate
- work as hard as possible and look for opportunities
- don’t forget to call mother 🙂 and drink lots of water!
Heh these are just a couple of things that have been floating through my mind lately in the last month or so as I reflect. It’s not all encompassing and definitely doesn’t capture the amazingness of Yale, but I think it does capture most of the thoughts that I have had and the major points, lowered expectations but high hopes! I am looking quite forward to all the exciting things that will happen in the years to come and will try my best to make it the best years of my life 🙂 I will probably update this and add to it if anything else comes up in my mind, but for those of you that read this far… thanks so much for making it all the way haha ❤